I’m drinking tonight

Pull ups do not equal potty trained. I loathe pull ups. Pull ups suck giant donkey balls. You know what else sucks? Parents who let their 3.5 year old, un-potty trained kids call the shots.

Today I had a 3.5 year old throw things at me, scream at the top of his lungs for about 50 minutes and throw himself over toys, on the floor and into the wall because I put a diaper on him. I don’t care that he has pull ups, if he won’t use the toilet or even make an effort there is not even a teeny tiny reason for me to have to completely disrobe the child for a diaper change.



I’m having a bit of runner’s knee. It’s nothing I couldn’t run through, but I’m I think 10 weeks out from my race and I don’t think it is worth getting really hurt, so I am going to skip my run tonight. I need to stay healthy. When I run my next half, I want to be at my best. I’m going to follow the steps to stay healthy. I think I did too much hill work over the last couple weeks and I’m going to stay on some flat ground for a little while and also cut my speed work until I feel at least 95%. I hate having issues. Getting old is a bit of a bitch.

School safety

I don’t know anyone with children who wasn’t deeply affected by the tragedy at Sandy Hook elementary in Connecticut. It made me hug my children tighter, thankful it wasn’t my kids, I felt guilty that I was thankful it was someone else’s children, even guiltier for verbalizing it. It prompted me, and thousands of other parents to reevalutate the illusion of safety we have had in sending our children off to school each day. It even prompted me to show up at a PTO meeting for the first time in 5 years to discuss the security at our own elementary school. I felt “ok” with the security at our other schools, but our elementary school has some major problems.

After i left the meeting I really gave some thought to what had been said, what’s being done, and the effects it may have on the children. Right now, my kids feel safe,and the truth is, a motivated killer can get in anywhere. I’m going to include here and exchange I had with another mom in response to the meeting. We are both long winded, so excuse it and know that i’m posting it up because i have a point, I swear.

  • Friend

    OMG its keeping me up at night….for real. im gonna set up a meeting with miss H….was i wrong to ask what other things were gonna be done to the school for security…was I wrong to wonder if the doors and windows would ever be replaced and updated….and this buzzer deal doesn’t even sound like it will be actually fixed to the building….I did a lil research on them and if I am looking at the same thing Miss H mentioned, this is a MOBILE buzzing system and isn’t even a part of the building( I could be wrong tho, it happens once in a while)….it just doesnt seem as though they (admins) are really are doing anything to our building. I see they are updating the HVAC system….yay, but as far as secuitry thats all we get is this mobile buzzing system….I feel like its our turn as a building….to be updated a lil bit at least. Have u been to harris…its a cadilac and us at coverdell are a pinto compared…(building wise) Shoot I bet those are the original doors from the 60’s when the place was built. and this nonsense on how school is just like the movies and walmart and such as far as security, being this is such a sucky world we live in, is really making me mad….not upset mad!! How can our principal compare our schools safety to that of a movie theather….shoot when I think all night long about it….a movie theather is safer than school….cuz IM THERE!!!! Miss H seemed to be a lil deer in the headlight looking when I asked if they were going to be doing anything to the windows and such…am I the only one who thinks we need MORE updates…..I hold high standards I guess….sorry to ramble, HELP lol…it was either you or sarah who got it and since you were at the meeting I thought Id get your advise. I do think a call to miss hill will be happening today….what do you think?? has anyone mentioned anything about it…besides making fun of me. LOLOLOL She really did make me feel like an ass tho….thats why i hate talking at them meetings. gonna take C to school and feed the animals if i dont reply right away.

  • Tara  (ME)

    Hey Friend – good morning! My laptop is having “issues” so I’ve run into the family room to respond…i think this is more than i can type on my phone LOL!!!

    I DO think our building has got to have more updates. There are multiple issues regarding this though, and A (the principal) really can’t do much other than implement building policy. The district is hurting for money in a major way. I don’t have to see a budget to know this because our school and School B,  School C & School D, and perhaps School E but don’t quote me on that one all became Title I schools this year. This means that a minimum of 40% of the students meet the low income standard determined by the free/reduced lunch program. School B is over 60% I believe. So this of course means that the tax base for the district is low. A bond issue for major renovation is the only thing that will be able to fix the big security problems. The best chance to have real security changes will need to come down from our School Board. There may be grants our district can receive, and I’d hope that Dr. M (the superintendent) has a grant writer on top of that.

    Do not feel like an ass at all. If nobody says anything, nothing will ever change – but I think the right person would be the superintendent, followed by perhaps our State Representative.

    I think most parents send their children to school under an illusion of safety. The truth is though, Ms. H is correct, it isn’t any safer than anywhere else we go. We have to heavily weigh whether we want our children to grow up in a police state and what implications both intended and unintended can occur with each additional safety precaution.

    The glass absolutely needs to be replaced. An auto-locking device should be installed on the doors to the building from the breezeway – one that the secretary could instantly lockdown without a key in the event that an intruder shot through/forced his way through the breezeway entrance. If I had my way, the front offices of these schools would be staffed by a principal & assistant with concealed firearms.

    This world is a scary place.

  • Friend

    Whew!!! I needed that….really I did. My mind felt like exploding. I’m still somewhat of a newbie and understand that I should take the building issues to the administration. Im so scared…..I wish they would just rebuild the whole place. Gas staions have more security with those h hidden 911 buttons they have….I guess I was just hoping for more for the kids. And so agree some one in the office should be armed and trained. it wouldn’t be so bad if chloe was my youngest….but all the years ahead of me at coverdell really worry me!!! I do send my kids under the illusion of safety but still hold school up there with church. I guess its just the fact that I’m not there with them like I am at other places. I’ve looked into moving and homeschooling…..already…..I don’t want to do either. We even got a low income grant from oyr church to send our kids there but with 4 even the grants would make it impossible. Im trying to just go with it and not let it bother me but……its not easy. Thank u for that tara…..I needed it.

  • Tara (me)

    I know a handful if people who do homeschool their children. On of my bffs does, she lives on a nearby street just a couple blocks from here. I am sure she would talk to you about how she does it and still balances life and giving her kids a social life. Our kids are all friends

    You know, every day for 6 years I have worried about sending Dorothy to school because if her life threatening allergies. I have worried that something will happen despite all the precautions we have in place, that someone will disregard them, that she will take a chance, that the epi pens wouldn’t be enough. Fear is a funny thing because I worry now, but I have had to balance my fears with making sure she can lead a normal, wonderful life. If something happened today, and I never saw my girl again, I know I have done everything I could do to keep her safe within my power. That’s all I can do. It’s the same with the security thing in a way, I feel like there are more things I want done but I have to hope that what they have, what they are doing will be enough.

Monday, monday

When I was in Basic training & AIT in the Army we used to sing cadence everywhere we went. One of the ones that I sing when something becomes very mundane is – Here we go again, Same old Stuff again, Marching down the avenue, 5 more days and we’ll be through, Sound off, 1-2, Sound off 3-4, 1,2,3,4 -3, 4! That’s usually my Monday cadence. Usually is the operative word, because usual is not today.

Today i became even busier than I already was! Today = New 8 week old baby in the daycare, Liam’s basketball season started & today only, Liam is having some dental work done. Tonight we also have Dustin’s basketball practice & Dot has Girl Scouts. I have a PTO meeting as well. Yikes! 

In other news, I PR’ed my 5 mile race. I felt great and ran hard. It was a good race. Dustin’s team lost their game.

It is cold. Cold. Cold. 

Atkins is going well. The hubs lost 20lbs in our Induction. I lost 2. What the heck?

This is how we do it

There is nothing quite as exciting as a house full of people in quick motion because somehow Mom & Dad slept through the alarm. We woke up this morning with exactly 10 minutes to spare before Dustin’s ride would be at our house and my first daycare kid would arrive. Yup, 6:53 a.m. I jumped out bed, ran to Dustin’s room threw on the light and tell him to move, we seriously overslept, then I quietly tell Dorothy so i won’t wake Maggie. Down the hall to Liam’s room – normally Daddy wakes him up and dresses him because he is a lolly-gagger in a major way, but not today i tell him he must get up and get dressed, like NOW.

Down the stairs I fly with a toothbrush in my mouth, still wearing my workout clothes from my run last night. I had intended to shower, but a clean shirt will have to do. I pre-prep as much of the kid lunches & John’s lunches every night while I’m cleaning up dinner & getting the coffee ready for the next day. This morning I am tossing pre-cut fruit, boiled eggs, pkgs of fruities, pepperoni, sandwiches, salads, dressing, bottles of water into bags while pushing the levers on the toaster down to cook toaster strudels (a very rare treat that I just bought impulsively last night). Meanwhile the iron was heating and I was spraying the pants with Bounce ironing spray. I love that stuff, it’s like starch, but doesn’t flake. Dorothy comes down and I’m giving instructions to please put lunches & snacks into backpacks, get her breakfast, hand Liam his breakfast and to hurry up with all of the abovve. My door opens and two kids walk in, Dustin walks out with his breakfast in hand at 7:03. Ten minutes. The next 9 minutes are pretty calm considering the first 10. I give my daycare kids some food, Dorothy and Liam eat and John is somewhere spraying down with Axe because of course there was no time to shower and I try to not scald myself with my lifeblood – I of course mean coffee. 7:12, we have been awake less than 20 minutes and Dorothy & John head out the door for the day.

Wow. I feel like I ran a marathon, and because of my clothes I smell like it too, though I actually only ran 3.5 miles last night. Guess perfume to the rescue! Now I smell great, and look well, like I just woke up. The only person exempt from the crazy this morning was Maggie who somehow slept through it all.

So today is January 10th or 11th and it is suppose to be about 70 degrees, we expect snow in 2 days. I am running a 5 mile race tomorrow morning and I’m pretty sure it won’t be a PR kind of day. I have a great playlist and I’m doing it with some great girls that pretend to like me and enjoy my company. I think they like me, I’m pretty sure they do, but they like to talk and run, I usually pop my earbuds in and enjoy the safety of pack running. We usually don’t socialize during the week. I do like these girls though and I’m glad I have similarly paced people to run with.

What? It’s 2013 already?

Where did last year go? I had just recently told myself I was going to do the blog bit again and i looked, my last entry was in football season!

Back on Atkins Induction right now with the Mr. SuperAwesome. I do think he is super awesome, and I’m glad we can do this thing together. This is going to be the year I get back to my high school weight and the year I quit peeing in my pants when I jump! Most immediately though, it will be the spring i run 2 more half marathons, and in 2 days, a 5 mile race. It will be the spring we camp more, we go to the dirt racing track and drag strip more, and the spring we spend more time making our yard beautiful. It will be the summer we spend more lazy days at the pool, more time tossing a baseball, and more time tending our gardens. This fall will be the year I send my 1st baby to high school, my actual baby to kindergarten, and all 4 of the “little kids” will be in school!!! Plus my stepson is getting married in November!!

Today I am anxious to get off of work. I do love my job, but i’m itching to get down on my treadmill for a few miles. I always feel up when I run, and though the sun has shined the last few days, it is not today. It is dreary & raining. A run will make me feel like the sun shined.

Liam has to have more dental work done Monday. Dustin has a basketball game on Sunday, which is going to require the parent split since Dorothy has Girl Scout cookie kickoff skating party. Thank goodness I keep a big giant whiteboard family calendar to keep it all straight.

I ordered a crapton of yarn today. I’m making these silly little decorative scarves that seem to be really popular. I don’t get them really, but everyone else i know totally digs them. Of course, I live in jeans, t-shirts & sweatshirts, so something decorative wouldn’t really work. I can totally see wearing one and one of the little kids grabbing it and choking me out MMA style, but none of the kids being able to call for help. I say that, but the truth is even the 21 month old here knows how to operate my iPhone better than I do.